I know I am an atheist. To me that's a fact very much in the same why the sky is blue for me. My dad as much as I love him he's a baptist. Last night was very interesting because we talked about my being an atheist. For once this talk didn't have the usual level of screaming and carrying on by both sides. He asked me if I could "try on GOD for 30 days"...I shit you not. Now, he wanted me to promise him I could do this. And my reply was I could not. There are personal reasons, but as well as deep philosophical reasons why I do not believe in the existence of any God or Gods. In some ways I think he kind of understood that and in other ways I think he doesn't understand how I could've gotten to this point. Now, I told him when my mother used to abuse me she at times would quote bible scripture at me. He knows this now. I still told him all those painful memories aside for me the philosophical issues, and beliefs one must believe in order to be a Christian let alone a believer in any faith is a deal breaker for me. I have people I occassionally go to church with on Sundays. I like them as people, I like talking to them after services are over. I care not for their beliefs I just enjoy their company. Tonight I am going to bible study with him, because I do enjoy the debating that goes back and forth as they try to indoctrinate me. Of course I'm highly resistant. And for them they're not the angry hostile Christians you come across at times but they are devout, and I love them for who they are not what they are. I say all of this to ask this question:
How do I get my dad to understand my atheism is not a phase? How do I get them to understand that the issues I have are not only with their faith, but faith itself the concept of it? That the very structure of religion and how it's setup and what wills people to do completely upsets my stomach and makes me cringe.