Hey everyone! I, of course, am new to this site and thrilled to be here. I've already looked through a bunch of the discussion topics and posted a couple blog entries. It's very exciting and freeing to know that everyone here is a rational thinker!
I'm an ex-Christian. I was raised in Evangelical Free churches and did not even know that many Christians don't take the Bible literally until I attended a Catholic high school. Yup, that's right, high school. I believed in the creation story of Adam and Eve until I was fifteen. That's pretty embarassing, though I remember even from a young age I was very confused by the fact that that story didn't match with what I knew about dinosaurs, so at least my brain made a feeble attempt at trying to make sense of it all. I didn't really start to doubt my belief until college, and by the end of college I considered myself truly an atheist.
I love living free of religious constraints that make no logical sense, but oddly enough, I struggle with breaking myself of old religious rituals. Does anyone else have this problem? Sometimes when I am very stressed and panicking, I find myself pleading with a god that I don't believe in- it's a habit that I can't seem to break. I am fully aware that no one is listening, and I'm quite happy with that fact, but old habits die hard, I guess. I also sometimes can't seem to shake the feeling that everything I do is being monitored and recorded for godly purposes by some donut eating god security guard. That just might be my paranoia, though, or my exhibitionist tendencies :). Any advice?