My life has gone pretty far down the shitter in recent months, and I'm starting to wonder if this is all because of me in some way?
I've been out of school for a while now and i've been jobless too, not by joice though. So naturally my social life has been getting worse and worse. First I lost my boyfriend of 2 years, then I lost my best friend cause she decided to randomly ignore me for no reason. Then I lost my other best friend who I knew never really cared about me, but i was naive enough to think it was better than having no one at all...Is there something wrong with me? I'm seriously wondering this cause my life couldn't be in a worse place right now. I'm living with my aunt, all i do every day is watch my cousins, clean and going out for fun is like a monthly thing at best. I have no money, I'm dealing with an illness. Everything is wearing me down so much and I honestly feel more defeated than i ever have. I'm not saying i've had the worst life cause i definitely havent, but let's just say a surplus of abandonment has forced me into adulthood earlier than most . The worst part is that i'm usually very down to earth, i dont get over emotional or overdramatic about anything so I really hate feeling this way.
So how would others deal with this? I'm hoping this will help me out, so if you feel like it, shoot me an answer plz.