Cu, was it a block in your brain or an emotional need that slowed your separation.
I ask that for two reasons:
1) It wasn’t a block in my brain; I was leaving behind what had been a kind of safety net. I had been taught to ignore emotions, even when acting on powerful emotions, anger or fear.
2) I had been in the Navy and knew better than to trust everyone. While reading of the world’s major religions I saw that they all had a form of the xian golden rule and knew I wasn’t entering a jungle.
Compared to those two difficulties, getting rid of twelve years of Catholic education required only to see that there is no evidence for religious beliefs.
I tell myself a story about myself; some call this a "racket." The story and racket work to paint a picture of who I am in my brain, my self-concept. If I believe the noise, I live to that image. I thought that racket this morning when my phone systems confused me; I had over 50 messages on my answering machine and could not remember how to respond to them or erase them. I pushed each button, and none of them performed the way I wanted.
The 1st response I got angry and wanted to toss the damned thing in the trash;
The 2nd response I tried very hard to read the labels and could not;
The 3rd response I felt helpless;
The 4th response I asked Larry for help.
Problem solved. My reactions confirmed my racket: I am an idiot!
I told Larry and Laura, who came into my room to see what the conversation involved. I said, "I am an idiot!" Laura's responded, "Oh! What evidence do you have?" I told her, and her response was a typical one from her, "You can believe that about yourself if you want, however, I know of your fine and intelligent features," or something to that effect.
The racket, challenged when I thought about it, evaporated.