I got the call from my dad that I was dreading. My Aunt Linda had passed away yesterday after a three year battle with an aggressive form of breast cancer. This is the first death of someone so close to me that I've had to deal with as a newer atheist and I'm struggling. I've already had several calls and messages on FB trying to ease my pain by telling me she's in a better place and is with God. My response has been that she will always be alive in my heart and in my memories. This sorta brings me comfort, and I'm holding those memories close. I've now been invited to a memorial service at her church in a couple weeks and to a prayer vigil for breast cancer to honor her. Not sure I can handle hearing all the stuff about heaven and her being there when I know she's not. I want to be there for my family, and don't want to seem selfish by not attending. I'm so hurt and so confused right now.