what happened with the doctor and this issue? I hope that there was resolution on your medical troubles.
Some books that I highly recommend:
"59 Seconds" by Richard Wiseman
"Depression Is A Choice" by A.B. Curtiss
"Brainswitching Out of Depression" by A.B. Curtiss (the follow-up book to "Depression Is A Choice", which has more strategies for handling depression).
Also, if you have a strained relationship with your doctor, you might want to seek out a new one.
The title is very misleading and the author stated in her second book that she did not like the title, but that was what the publisher wanted to go with. As Curtiss says in the book, no one would intentionally choose depression. That would be like when Christians say that people choose to go to Hell.
What she means by "depression is a choice" is that when we are depressed and aware that we are depressed, we can choose to redirect our thinking if we are shown how to do it. The point of the book is to share these strategies for redirecting your thinking out of the spiral of depression and to learn to catch yourself as soon as you start to get depressed. It is essentially the same concept as cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT).
Back in 2007, I was in a deep depression and I quit my job of five years because I felt I needed to take care of my mental health before I did something rash. In hindsight, I shouldn't have quit my job, but when you are in a deep depression, your thoughts arent' rational. I went to the library and started looking for books on depression. The first couple I read were a complete waste of time. Then I went back to the library and came across "Depression Is a Choice". I sat down and read the first few pages. It appealed to me. I ended up reading half the book there in the library and finished it the next day. It completely changed the way that I viewed depression.