Hi everyone. Thanks for welcoming me to your community. It's nice to see that I'm not alone.

I knew I was an atheist when I was six-years-old or so, only I didn't know that was the term then. My mother was (and still is) the organist at the United Methodist Church I went to. I can remember vividly deciding to read the Bible for the first time during one of the services, to see what it was about. Being the reader I was, I started at the beginning. It didn't take me long to realize that none of it made sense. It sounded like pure nonsense. I didn't have much of an understanding of science at that point, but the very beginning of Genesis contradicted everything that I knew about up to that point.

But, being the good kid I was, I tolerated church. For a few years. As I moved into the third and fourth grade, I resented Sunday mornings and Sunday School. My parents forced me to go. Making matters worse, my father never went. I never felt it was fair that he didn't have to go, yet I had to (along with my brother). This was my life every Sunday, September through early June, every year until I graduated from high school at 17.

From that point forward, I basically only showed up to church on Christmas Eve and whenever my mother had some big production going on (to support her and the work she put into it).

After graduate school, I left my hometown, and have only set foot in a church for a wedding, funeral or other similar events. Even when I return home, I never go, unless I'm there on Christmas Eve.

I met my wife just over five years ago, and religion had zero place in our relationship. I knew that she was raised Southern Baptist, but she never brought up religion at all. I never did, because it just wasn't something that was important in my life. I rarely feel the need to discuss it with anyone, because I just feel that it is all nonsense. We have probably set foot in a church less than a dozen times in these five years.

Well, during this time, I've had an increase feeling that I should just tell her that I'm an atheist. Nothing has really changed in the sense of religion discussion in our relationship. It's continued to be next to zero. But I was feeling as though I was hiding who I was.

So, on Wednesday, I told her. Admittedly, I blindsided her a bit, since there wasn't any 'honey, we need to talk,' type thing said. She flew off the handle. I was shocked by her reaction, yet not surprised. She cried, yelled, repeatedly asked if I wanted a divorce, accused me of lying and all sorts of things. I just let her rant. Towards the end, I finally got in a 'this is who I am.' She then stormed off the bed and it was myself and the cat on the couch for the night.

I asked her Thursday night if she wanted to talk about it, and she gave me the 'look of death,' and refused to talk. I dealt with the silence for the remainder of the evening (she made some small talk before bed), but it was another night on the couch for me.

No, I don't know what to do. Is my marriage over? Is there a chance of saving it? Do I just continue to go on, not acknowledging anything and pretending this never happened? Something else? I've never told anyone else that I am an atheist, but given the reaction my wife had, her family and extended family (which they all think I'm the greatest thing since sliced bread), will probably be just as bad, if not worse.

I feel all alone. We moved to our present location 18 months ago and I have no friends here. My family up north has no idea any of this is happening and I just don't know what to do at this point. Does anyone have any suggestions? Thank you.

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Hi CJ:

I don't have any plans at this time to tell anyone else. I've faked it my entire life up to this point, when I've been in 'religion situations,' and I plan on doing that going forward. I don't want to be a 'militant atheist' by any stretch of the imagination, and it's just easier to 'nod and agree' when I'm the only atheist in the room.

I too only just signed up for this site, and I'd like to see where this takes me. Any help I can get (and give to others) along the way would be great.

To answer your questions: There are no kids involved. I'm currently in Pensacola, Florida (although culturally, this might as well be Alabama). I lived in St. Louis for five years (where I met my wife) and I was born and raised in Northwest Pennsylvania.

It's been my experience that people in the bible belt have a deeply rooted belief in god whether they attend church or not. I live in the belt and have not met another atheist. Everyone in my family are hard core Christians. Just take it one day at a time is the only thing I know to tell you. And that I'm more satisfied with my life now that I'm out as an atheist. My family is dealing with it the best they can. We agree not to discuss religion. Or politics.
I wish I had some sage advice for you. It took courage for you to be so self. revealing.

Maybe just give it some time to settle in? People can be surprising.

Just give this some time. She may be shocked and reacting from this. If she doesn't tell all of her family about it, ranting and running you down as she does, there's just a good chance that she might get over her initial reactions and start talking to you normally again. Once she can figure that you are not "trying to convert her" everything just may be OK.

I'm sorry I have no help no offer, but after reading your story it seems to me that your wife has been a closet xtian all the time. So don't feel bad about coming out.

Greets and welcome, Rob.  I'm glad you found us.

I won't claim to have any monster sage advice for you either, other than perhaps this: ask her to look at her reaction, specifically in the light of what your relationship was BEFORE she knew you were an atheist.  I'm going to take a guess and say that you had at least a decent relationship with her and that you weren't an axe-murderer on the weekends (!).  Obviously, she's reacting to what she was TAUGHT about atheism and atheists and instantly projecting that onto you, which is neither particularly fair nor rational.  If (and that may be a pretty big "if") you can get her to look at the issue rationally, you have a chance.  It'll be a while, though, as it appears her religious indoctrination is rather well seated.

Please take the above with however many grains of salt you wish ... and know that you have beau coup support here.

What pisses her off more - that you are an atheist, or that you don't believe in the Judeo-Christian god? My guess is the latter. Maybe she needs to consider the oddity that is how people become so entangled with the religion they identify with. There's typically nothing objective about it. One's religion is nearly always a function of family history and geography. People on one side of the planet act just as serious about the religion and god(s) they were indoctrinated into, as people on the other side of the planet, and each is fully convinced that the others are wrong about their choice. It's a significant reality, and a great place to start in a mutual understanding of where you both stand. Maybe it's what she needs, in order to complete that epiphany that is already driving her to almost completely ignore religion and god the way she has done throughout your marriage.

Not only did it take courage to tell your wife it also showed your commitment to a honest relationship.  Good luck  


Hi Rob! Just a few thoughts on your situation: yes, give her time, and in that time be the same lovely husband that she's always known. She needs time to process the information. Have you considered getting some couples counseling? Do you think she'd go? If not, go yourself. If you two are keeping secrets like this and not talking about important things, what else have you two not shared? It's not a healthy relationship if you're not fully able to express yourselves to each other.

It's time for you to get out and make some friends. Go to meetup.com and do a search for things you're interested in (basketball pickup games? dungeons and dragons game night? book club? knitting? and of course atheists groups-it's all there, you just need to get out and find it). Even if you're an introvert and don't like leaving the house (maybe you're not, I don't know), you need to build a support group for yourself. A/N is great for that too, but face-to-face is so much better.

Make no mistake, she's told someone in her family and you are no longer the golden child. Expect the worst from them (maybe it won't happen, but gird your loins anyway). Be prepared. Don't apologize, but don't be a wretch either.

Sorry you have to go through this. I wish you all the best-Reg

But, avoid a Christian counselor. Get someone who can be objective.

Yes-thanks for adding that!

Oh My GOD.  This is bad, dude.  Not that i need to tell you that.  I wouldn't call you dude if you knew your name.  I'll call you COA, or Cal, for short, I guess.  So, Cal.  I am an atheist, and became one after i was married.  My wife is actually very christian though, and i used to be the same way.  It was a gradual process for me, but i did admit it to myself and to her, explicitly.  She was really with me through the whole process though.  We actually met in Bible College, and it was partly my qualms with nonsensical religous doctrine, along with a new understanding of scientific ideas like evolution that led me away from theism.  That being said, i am really sorry that you handled this the way that you did.  My wife is still a christian though, so we share that in common.  One thing we did was see a counselor, to help us work through some of the trauma associated with a big change like that.  One thing i recommend (and i am going to use caps here, because i am very serious about this: MAKE SURE YOU FIND A SECULAR COUNSELOR!  If you don't, it won't be fair.  I made that mistake, and although i'd still say it was worthwhile, i would not recommend it in your more dicey situation (not judging, just what it sounds like).  Good luck Cal, i wish you the best success in working this out with your wife, and you have my full emotional support.  





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