I suppose I was 8 when I found theology rotten.
As a bi-polar child, of 6 I had been developing a theology of my own in the sand boxes and playgrounds of my youth. I was a very in tune child and was far more aware than your average bear of the reality of the world. I would not play with other kids. I would wander and ponder philosophy and what not.
Any way. I felt the presence of a "God" in myself. And I was perplexed as a child by the cruelty I saw in the other children my age, as well as, adults. I was taken to church at age 7. What I heard was very interesting. Hucking stones, golden rules, and whatnot.
After the sermon, i went to Sunday school. I had all these questions about what was said, and several issues of incongruence regarding resurrection and whatnot. The teacher told me to "shut up and draw Jesus." In a very rotten way.
I knew then that it was not me that had the thinking problem. The questions I asked were just not solvable by someone who was teaching children Lies.
The next week I ran away from home while everyone else was getting ready for church. After a few weeks of that. Thank the god I do not believe in. My whole family stopped going.
After that nearly every encounter I had with the religious was very negative. I was in the Mormon scouts where they beat me because I was not Mormon. And my last day told me I had to sexually molest the leaders dog along with them as a "INITIATION RITE".
The leader was not in on it. It was just their kids. But the whole thing was very sick. There were countless other Mormon horrors in my life. I quit on the spot, and my parents made me feel I was a looser and a quitter. A theme that continued throughout life.
I stayed Atheist until the end of high school. But my Bipolar nailed me in the end. And I became again convinced of a god. But I was always, and have always been a non- or even Anti-theist. I have never wavered from that.
These days I go by atheist or anti-theist. I also abhor neo-peganism to the extreme which often is the garbage I encounter the most. It is very difficult to deal with in the circles I run. Because Atheism and reason are rejected. The later more so.
But finding this website really made me feel a lot better. I was really impressed reading a lot of the threads. AHHHHH... Thinkers!
Anyway I am really occupied until the end of the month so I likely will not post too much until then. But I have really enjoyed what I have read so far. And will surely join more in the forums when things settle down....
Thanks to everyone who welcomed me... It made me feel very welcome.
Welcome, Todd. Such terrible experiences you've had in your past! I'm happy that you found this site. It's a great community with a little something for everyone and their many interests. Enjoy. --Carl