When I first created a Facebook account, I was excited. I took the time to fill out the questionnaire. I uploaded photos and artwork and got ready to participate in a global phenomenon. I got friend requests from fundamentalist Christian and / or extreme right-wing family members, followed by friend requests from local fundamentalist Christian acquaintances. There were only a few non-religious people and I did not know them very well.

The influx of fundies was predictable. What I should have predicted was the influx of friend requests from people with whom I attended Christian grade school, Christian high school and Christian college.

By this time I had figured out that fundamentalist Christians will, without exception, without guilt and without honor, proselytize you and then dump you as soon as it becomes evident you will not be swayed without good evidence. They will do so even if they have promised not to and then somehow forget they ever made such a promise. I've noticed that Christians have an uncanny ability to forget past events that cast them in a bad light. How do they do this? I wish I could forget all the crappy things I've done.

Because of Facebook, people I had spent thirty years trying to avoid wormed their way back into my life. With each new friend request I felt compelled to out myself as an atheist. Why? I hate living a lie and didn't want awkward moments. What is an awkward moment to me? Old "friends" assuming I'm still brainwashed and treating me accordingly. When this happens, I invariably opt for the truth. I don't go out of my way to create conflict, but if I am honest with a fundamentalist Christian, conflict is an intrinsic part of the interaction. Even liberal Christians will often try to remove themselves from your sphere of influence, especially if you strongly feel religion is mostly harmful. I happen to strongly feel religion is mostly harmful.

Two weeks after creating my Facebook account, I no longer wanted it. Yeesh. In order to be myself, I would have to block my family, community members and keep two or three freethinkers.

So I decided to create another account based on my atheism. As I've already pointed out in several posts, atheists have only one thing in common. They don't believe in deities. Other than that, everything is up to debate. When I joined an atheist Facebook group, I suddenly had hundreds of atheist "friends" I didn't know whose world views and interests collided with my own. I didn't want my Facebook experience to be one of contention and atheists are a very contentious lot. 

So, I shut down both accounts. Recently I got my first smartphone: a gift. The easiest way to play some cell phone games is to create a Facebook account and recruit friends to help with various aspects of the game. So I made a "junk" Facebook account. I kept all my details private. I almost never visit the actual page. Today I did and this is what greeted me.


Oh, I really wanted to type a zero. I really, really did. But I've grown too tired of fighting. I have several chronic illnesses that sap my energy. I've already spent many years on forums and in real life trying to fight the good fight, but I'm spent. I just can't do it anymore. 

If you'd like to, you youngsters can go to the page and type a zero. I didn't want to fight...or lose my gaming friends. Who would light the torches on my "My Singing Monsters islands"? XD Before you judge me for using the masses, I light their torches, too, whether they're religious or non-religious. I'm a torch-lighting machine. :) I've even given up on convincing Christians they're wrong.

So, a "junk" Facebook account is the only Facebook account for me. Handy for evading those Christian leeches and the atheist hordes with whom I share nothing. Soothing for the constant stress of chronic pain and emotional exhaustion. I used to love the Internet and build / fix computers for cash. Now I have fantasies of going off the grid. The Internet has become stressful. The best part of the Internet was being anonymous and social media has destroyed it.

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There is more to me than just atheism also. I'm very much into free TV and movies and watch most anything free. I also build over the air antennas and refurb the older ones. Reading is a passtime but I like history and real subjects. Mostly I keep myself entertained and seldom get bored. If you feel bored just take up another subject. I'm also very much into computers.

booklover, thanks for the heads-up.

I too once had a Farcebook account under my real name and filled with my personal information.  Predictably, someone from my high school found me and a deluge of friend requests resulted, all of which I accepted.  I wasn't completely surprised but still dismayed to find that every one of my old school chums had become far right wing Christian fundamentalists -- that just happens if you survive back there.  Otherwise, you get the fuck out like I did.

I found that very many of my posts hurt my old friends deeply, though that wasn't intended.  I tried unfriending some of the more fundamental fundamentalist, but it's an interconnected network and so that doesn't really work.  So I deleted that account, in the process also losing long distance contact with some real friends.  I created another account under a pseudonym (the same one that I use here.  It's not an entirely fake name, but it's not what's on my driver's license.  It was given to me by my grandfather and is how I'm known on the Rez).  Some people find me through that pseudonym that I widely use online, but most of them are not Christian fundamentalists from North Carolina.  My ex found me there and here, and I had to block her in those cases, but that's manageable.

For many news websites and blogs you have to have a Farcebook identity to comment, which slightly pisses me off.  Sometimes you get the option to also post to Farcebook, and sometimes not.  Sometimes you don't know whether what you say there goes elsewhere, and I don't generally care.

These days I have maybe a dozen Farcebook friends and that's plenty.  I do miss the voices of some others on my original page, but won't risk breaching the wall and letting them all in.


Type 1 or 2?

Unless offered at least a 1.5, I won't play that game.

A 1960s-era semanticist described well my Catholic years.when he wrote: people who see only two conditions are feeling stressed.

Type 1 or 2 sounds like a diabetes test.

I too enjoyed anonymously attacking religion for decades, yet now they automatically track your IP address and my IP spoofing engines no longer function, as they have cracked down on message relaying and closed all the relay servers.

So, it is now a case of being a recognized troll instead of an anonymous troll.

One could still set up email accounts under false names, but the email messages themselves are tracked back to your IP address.

Occasionally sending them from library computers can give some anonymity, but again, the time is booked under your library card, thus trackable.

I too have a series of chronic conditions, but, luckily, as yet, none of them are severely painful, though they have the potential of becoming so.

As Flying stated, we do have an innate urge for social connection to others, so, to cut that off will be denying yourself part of your natural psychological heritage.

I don't mind being known, and at this stage of my life, it doesn't really matter if I get a backlash from those Xtians I've been stirring up all those years.

They are complete Idiots and I will simply continue to tell them so.

Their comebacks are just as lame and nonsensical as ever.

Which actually makes it even more amusing.

If I pop off this planet, at least I will go out rolling in laughter at their extremely stupid, naive rebuttals.




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