I came late to the discussion, and admit I haven't read all 45 pages of comments. But my thoughts on your question are best summed up by this quote attributed to Marcus Aurelius:
‘Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the
virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you
should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be
gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories
of your loved ones.’
I love this! I also have not read the 45 pages, but this all made me think of "Smith's wager" which I came across while websurfing not too long ago.
1. The existence of a god, if we are to believe in it, can only be established through reason.
2. Applying the canons of correct reasoning to theistic belief, we must reach the conclusion that theism is unfounded and must be rejected by rational people.
More details are in the link, and the conclusion is:
1. If there's no god, you are correct.
2. If there's an indifferent god, you won't suffer in hell anyway.
3. If there's a just god, you have nothing to fear from the honest use of your reason.
4. If there's an unjust god, you have much to fear but so does the Christian.
I found it comforting.
"Woody Allen suggested yet another premise: What if a god exists; is benevolent, omnipotent and omniscient, but is also an under-achiever? "
LOL!! yeah, I like that quote too ;)
Sounds like you have the same anxieties I had.
Though I never believed, for most of my life I was afraid to admit it.
I did not become an atheist overnight, or because I think it's radical, or for reading a book.
This has taken years, why? Because I want to be 100% satisfied with my belief, afterall,
it's nothing less than my own "soul" we are talking about here. What if I die suddenly tomorrow!?
If there were even the slightest shread of evidence, not proof, just evidence, or even a really good
philisophical argument for the christian god, I would know it, and take it very seriously.
You see, I always WANTED to believe.
My theist friends told me to pray. So, I prayed (though I did feel a bit silly!).
Does god not say in the bible that he will answer our prayers?
But I did not pray for material things, I prayed to god simply for the power of belief and faith.
Humbled and begging for him to at least guide me to the right path.
Even coming to me in a dream woud be nice, I could take it from there.
But, guess what, god never answered my prayers. No hint, no dream, nothing.
I was not expecting a "miracle", just asking for something very basic.
Since god wants us to believe and have faith, I would certainly think that this would be
the one prayer he would answer.
My theist friends pray. They say their prayers are "heard", they avoid saying their prayers were
My christian friends have ailments, sickness, deaths of family and friends, etc. just like I do.
Yet, for all their love and devotion to god, not a single one of their prayers have been answered.
Dont be afraid to let go of the religion that has been a fixture your whole life.
It has done no one a bit of good other then being the incentive for fear and guilt.
Just trust and believe in your self :)
Well for a start I think it absolutely matters "what God or what religion". (your second sentence above). You cant say "just if there is one".
Because what "kind of god" exists (if there exists one) determines what the outcome of this would be.
Just an example:
If a Christian God exists then most probably it doesn't actually matter what you say or believed. If you didn't believe in Jebus in your lifetime, you are in trouble.
Also your other questions depend on the god that exists. For example i cant tell you if "God" understands my reasons when passing judgment unless we can agree that we talk about a God who is capable or incapable of doing so. If we agree on such a preposition, then the question becomes obsolete however.
You get my point?