I was wondering if anyone had found themselves praying or crying out to god in a time of desperation. I am 26 now, have been skpetical since I was a child, and officially an athiest for a couple of years. However, a couple of months ago, I had my son, and after only being home one day I was told to rush to the hospital because my son's bilirubin levels were critical. He had a bad case of jaundice. Being the person that I am, I researched the effects of jaundice on the internet and within moments was bombarded with the ill effects of jaundice--brain damage, retardation, deafness, etc. I was devastated, and I must admit that even though I am totally embarrased about it now, I prayed. Since then I have wondered what that act made me... a hypocrit? I don't know. Has anyone else experienced something like this?
Have you never done it?
I have done it which I why I said yes 3 times :) It is hard to get over something you've lived with for years; I'm not one of those who was always skeptical. I mean I was, at the same time I was emotionally committed to believing.
Honey, yes!!!! I have done it a couple of times. Old habits die hard. Heck, I still say "Jesus" every once and a while. Like if i am shocked for some reason. It's ok to backslide in a time of despair, as you called it! As long as you know, the real deal.