I am not bitter, though I only fully deconverted on the 1st of November last year.
I come from a long line of Huguenots, so I was raised to be an extremist. I also had the added bonus of having a biological mother whom is a psychopath, which has been confirmed by a mental health professional. So religion was a method of control and manipulation. As a teenager, I moved into pentecostalism, where my extremist mindset was much approved of. I married at 18, believing it was "god's will", and left the christian arsehole a year later. He was such a misogynist that I can thank him for turning me into a feminist!
However, it was not until last year, just after I turned 26 that I fully deconverted. I had more paganistic leanings at the time, but decided not to jump into anything and just spend some time in reflection. After much thought and consideration, it suddenly occured to me one day as I made a cup of tea that I was definitely an atheist, and rather comfortable being one. The world is simpler place in a more beautifully complex way for me now. Everything is fascinating. And I like being able to say, "shit happens sometimes and I don't know why". Atheism has brought me much inner peace.
I am connected to a large forum of ex-christians online, and I have noticed that the ones who are the most bitter are the ones who focus the most on what christianity robbed them of, instead of ficusing on their new-found life and freedom. It also seems to be the ones who buy into the Religious Trauma Syndrome who have the hardest time coping, interestingly enough. I don't deny that religion can be traumatising, but I do find the after-effects of buying into this special syndrome alarming. I am still researching into Dr. Marlene Winell, one of the leading crusaders for RTS. Unfortunately, so far I am only ending up with more questions and suspicions the further I dig.
Anyway, I'll wrap up there. Nice to eet you all :)
I'm a bit bitter that I wasted my university time on theology ... though without doing so I can't see a way that I would have got out of Christianity.
Yeah ... I harbour a certain amount of anger towards Christianity ... but the anger is not the reason I'm no longer a Christian, the anger is because I once was a Christian.
I'm not bitter. Sometimes, I wish the world were a little more even-handed, but I learned a lot during my time as a Christian. If I hadn't been involved in the church, I might never have learned how to distinguish between rational thought and control- or fear-based assertions. I never would have started studying the psychological and historical influences on religion. I looked at religion, at the time even, as a trial-and-error exercise. I'm better for having tried it. It didn't work for me, and I found that many in the church were more fond of ritual and zombie-like obedience than they were of the ethics they claimed to follow. Since those ethics were what attracted me in the first place, that was a huge red flag. If a god can't live up to the highest human standards, I concluded, such a god was either a fraud or the tool of a power-hungry priesthood. Perhaps both.