I was blessed to be raised in a secular household. During my teens and 20's I got 'saved' and involved in the Christian church, eventually ending up teaching VBS and preschool Sunday school. My husband did not attend and it was becoming a source of strife in our family so when we made a move to a different city I just didn't go back. We had some friends who were Messianic Jews and that started me on the path of studying Torah and Judaism which I found made so much more sense. That lead me to eventually discovering quotes by Einstein and Spinoza and finally it clicked with me that this was the concept of 'God' that I have held all the time. At the time I was also looking for ways to be able to convert and found my way to the SHJ whose statement about who could be considered a Jew made much more sense than what I had been hearing from Reform. I had been studying and reading for a few years and I took my studies to some of the secular Jewish authors. No one can understand why I would want to adopt a form of Judaism that didn't have a specific doctrine or belief in the supernatural but to me, it makes perfect sense. For myself, it is all about finding meaning in life. Bringing light into my home with the Shabbat candles, or helping my children light the menorah or studying Jewish ethics and thought, practicing the concept of tikkun olam- actions over belief- has added a level of meaning and enjoyment in my life. I know longer work for some eternal reward but just for good. Some say that is a 'pick and choose' scenario but I say that it is allowing myself the freedom to have a Judaism that is meaningful to me as an individual and a practice that allows my family and I to have traditions that do not involve any particular belief. Right now I am working on my essay in order to complete my adoption through the SHJ.