I have been slowly coming out to friends and family evryone has been cool so far. The only person in my family I really worry about is my mother. She's not the most religious but she is a strong believer and I am afraid she will feel like a failure, seems funny I'm in my 30's yet this subject makes me feel like i'm 14 again,repeating the I don't want to go to church anymore battle.
Anyways I am going to spend time with my best friend. She's been away for years stationed all over the place. We keep in contact but since she's been stationed out in the pacific the past few years, communication has been pretty much reduced to the occasional email.
Any-who she's coming to town and we are going to spend a day together. I'm really excited, but at the same time nervous. Her last visit I discovered she was not only a believer but she was a hardcore fundie baptist. Which I was shocked, she was the skeptic and I was the believer in superstitions when we were younger. I never had a chance to find out how she came about her 180. She was surprised by my beliefs that at the time were basically pantheistic. She never knew me as a fundie but I always considered myself strongly "spiritual" before. So when I was like Meh she was quite surprised and a bit uncomfortable. I worry about what will happen if I come out.
Part of me is saying don't be silly you guys are like sisters, you'll get past this difference. But part of me is afraid bc I know what can happen with the closest family bonds when an atheist comes out. I can try to avoid the subject but her religion has become so strong that last years visit it was unavoidable. And I'm not the type to keep quiet if people assume my position. I'm hoping she has mellowed but I don't see any sign that she has.
I'm not certain why I'm really posting this. Maybe I'd like to hear some advice or maybe encouragement. Maybe just to get it off my chest. All I know is this is bothering me and I only have a couple more days to work out my thoughts and feelings before our visit. I don't want to go in and responding irrationally if it does come up. Any thoughts?