Francis, I am glad you found Atheist Nexus, especially since so many of your family are Seventh Day Adventists. You have a formidable challenge facing you. You will find many different stories here that will give you courage and strength. This is a perfect place to express any feelings you have, anger, grief, fear, guilt and shame are the most common ones. Each person's story gives us more insight into how and why we chose our paths. There are many different groups and you will find several that may interest you. If you like participating in forums, or write a blog, those processes can be accessed at the top of the page. We like sharing our photographs as well. Welcome to Atheist Nexus. This is a very special place and I am glad you are here.