Good and healthy step, Jennifer, though I know it isn't easy at all. More of us are telling our stories and coming out "into the light" of reason. Nature is central for me on this path. If my book Life After Faith is helpful give it a read. Welcome!
Welcome to A|N. The people here are generous with encouragement and praise. You will have no trouble finding a sympathetic ear as I have come to learn. I think it was Richard Dawkins who once said that pantheism was really just sexed-up atheism. Einstein himself had great reverance for the universe and to him this was God.