Wow I was so relieved to leave! My professor tried to get me to stay longer and even offered to let me stay at his house so I could finish some things up, but I had to politely decline. (the thought of staying made me shudder).
when I got back home though, I discovered that my Dad has been in a state of denial for the past year about my atheism. Now he is having to face it and is having a difficult time coming to grips with it. He threatened to kick me out of the house this last week after kindly expressing my desire not to participate in scripture study. keep in mind I had only been home for two days. If my exit plan hadn't fallen through then I'd probably have moved out already. He apologized and now doesn't ask me to participate, but I don't think I can ever forget that I was almost thrown out of the house for something so stupid. It still makes me mad just thinking about it. So now that I'm home, I do miss Provo, because at least there I had friends that didn't care what I believed. Here, I don't really know anyone but my family. I hope that soon I'll be able to find somewhere I can move to in Seattle temporarily until I can get a job and an apartment. Only then will I truly feel the proverbial anvil lifted off of my chest!
Really? there's no language center? Wow I guess I always assumed that every process within the brain was organized into neat little compartments. I think it would be an interesting experiment to see if an atheist's brain lights up in the same areas when talking about the grandeur of the cosmos as a christian when he talks about God. Is the love of God people feel just the self generated love of mystery? Hmm if I only had some fancy machinery and electrodes... So have you done post graduate schooling, or are you considering it?
Well, it just seemed to build up over time. Reading various things. Growing up Hindu in a Christian world. Learning about Native American ideas on creation and religion. I'm sure dating a very "fundegelical" christian had something to do with pushing me in that direction. But in the end, I realized that whatever the answer to the ongoing debate is, the debate itself seems pointless because we'll never have any definitive answers. And in the meantime, there are things to be done in the world that require real work.
I am not totally sure I'm an atheist. I generally think god does not exist. But whatever the answer to that question is, I tend to agree with the "ignostic" or "nontheist" stance which is: the question of god is meaningless because it has no verifiable consequences. I came to this realization over the course of the last couple of years. I'm not sure what spurred it along. Probably the current political climate and general lack of critical thinking skills. What about you?
Only a week and a half left! Then I can wash my hands of this place! (knock on wood)
I'll be heading off to Washington to hopefully find a job in he Seattle area working in a lab. I don't really know what I want to do either. All growing up it was my goal to be a child prodigy in something like math or even ping-pong, but when I turned 20 I finally realized that it was time for me to make a plan B. I guess I'm no good at making plans either. However, I feel forced into research right now because it is the only marketable skill I got from college. So here I am looking at online listings to see which jobs I might qualify for.
neurolinguistics? sounds like heavy stuff. is that where you attach electrodes to someone else's head to see what parts of their brains "light up" when they speak?