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In the two years since I was last here..
I have almost died.
Which sent me to the hospital for a few weeks.
Had my dog hit by a car the week I got out of the hospital.
She lost a leg.
After two years lost my home.
Had to give up said dog. That one still hurts.
Had to leave Oregon for California to live with family.
And now I live with my Dad and his fifth wife and they are Christian…Continue
There is a song out there called My Body is a Cage. I can’t recall who wrote it but as far as performing the song goes Peter Gabriel’s version is what I find myself listening to most often.
For me my body has become a cage. One I’ve been trying to escape from for a while. Progress is slow then it seems things take a turn and go back downhill. In my fight to fix myself I have a lot going against me in that my lungs don’t function very well. This doesn’t mean I give up. I just have to…Continue
4 AM comes again I lie here in bed and look out the window. I stare at the brightest star I can see like I do most nights. I often avoid sleep to avoid dreaming but not sleeping is even worse for me. Being awake I guide my own thoughts is more of a pain than any dream I could have.
I reflect on long talks that never happened. On events that could be and every outcome there could be to them. I reflect on events in my life and what I should have done, what I could have done to make…Continue
I am fat, I know I am and even if I didn’t know I was people tell me often enough when I am in public. I have always been bigger, but I was at least active. I went to the gym and took part in the martial arts for years.
I’ve been trying to lose weight again and I have been but I haven’t lost anything in a month now. I fear I am going about to gain it all back which would just send me into depression worse than I already deal with on a daily basis.
Depression has always been an…Continue