"I'd been an atheist-in-denial for most of my life (since I was 12, best I can remember). My a-ha moment came as I was driving on a lonely Montana highway and was thinking about god and faith. I suddenly realized that what was keeping me…"
From one atheist to another, welcome to Atheist Nexus. Do visit often, join in as much as you want, .... and enjoy good company.
N.B. I have been running a busy discussion group here since September 2008. It is "Origins: Universe, Life, Earth, Humankind, Religion, Faith,....etc.....” and has over 180 commonsense topics whose discussions rebuff religious nonsense. Try visiting. Terry Meaden (60+).