I just recently joined Atheist Nexus because I moved to a place to teach Spanish where most people are conservative and Christian. Before I lived somewhere where liberal atheists were relatively common, and at least no one would assume I was a Christian or Republican.
This is my first year teaching, and I had to move here to get started, or somewhere I would like even less. Not knowing anyone, and being afraid to say what I really think out here, I need somewhere I can go to be myself.
I was raised without any religion, and was probably in middle school before I really realized people took it seriously. Once in my life, I was tempted to believe and tried my hardest. When I was 12, my grandmother (who it turns out was an atheist too) died of cancer, and it was the first time someone I cared about died. For a couple months I prayed, thinking maybe if I did it enough I might brainwash myself into believing she was still there somewhere, other than in the minds of those who had loved her. After a while I gave up, and have never been seriously tempted again. I grew up, and realized that this life is what matters. One day I will die, as everyone does, and if I can say then that I have been a good person, and not wasted my life, that will be enough.
If I continue posting here, it will be to find a relief from a life surrounded by theists. So, it will probably be a place for me to vent about religion, or post about the absurdity of religion or humor about religion.