Its been a hard day. Eleven years ago today my mother passed away. I was only ten, so every year its hard on me. I felt like I was robbed of so much.
It could have been harder, though. My best friend and my fiancee accompanied me to the gravesite. It was the first year I made it on her deathdate. It was nice to have their morale support. And they both knew better than to try to comfort me with the "She's in a better place" or "Everything happens for reason" (they are both religious, but still know better. :-)
I am also glad I didn't meet other family members there. They all went, but we all went at different times. They would have tried comforting me with the above statements, and today is not the day for that $hit, at least not today!
Then we went to visit my grandmother, I felt like she could use the support. It must be really hard to have to outlive your child. We kept her in good spirits. She hadn't seen my buddy since we were kids (my buddy's mom and my mom were best friends). That tickled her pink! lol
So it could have been worse. I'm glad I had my loved ones with me today.
Love. thats something even an atheist like me can believe in! :-)