Right I am experiencing a very depressing time in my life. Once upon a time I would look to religion to try and make sense of my circumstances. But know I realize how patronizing and empty those interactions were and I realize I am the one who must overcome these feelings. I am in the midst of applying for disability via Social Security and the hoops I must jump through seem never ending, with no end in sight. I have been waiting months to get an appointment with a pain management doctor (more red tape with my health insurance) while fighting with my primary physician to try and control my pain. My left foor was crushed and have endured to painful surgeries to repair the damage. And although the surgery has repaired the damage as much as medical science can, I am left with constant extreme pain. And this is topped off with back problems (have had 3 different surgeries to "correct" the problems to no avail. As a result I am stuck with inadequate pain control due to several factors. I have poor insurance health insurance coverage where I have a very limited choice of doctors and only 1 overbooked pain management physician. My primary care doctor is more afraid of the DEA than he is concerned with adequately managing my pain. I am in a spiral of depression and pain that is sucking me deeper into the depths of despair and I am running of coping mechanisms. I also suffer from fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome and COPD. I am not sure how this will end - I love my life and suicide is NOT an option. I am simply at the point that I no longer know where to turn or where to seek help. My family has been very supportive to this point, yet their the patience and understanding are very are running low causing a lot of friction between my wife and I. And I hate this. My wife has been my rock through all of thi, but sometimes it is very hard for her to understand what I live with on a daily basis. Sorry for this long rant but I had to get this off my chest.
Is there anyone in my situation? I would love to here your story and any way you have come up with to help deal with this situation. Thanks in advance.