I'm still grappling with saying it.

I'm an atheist.

I get flashbacks to Sunday School teachers equating atheists with Satan worshipers. Atheists were evil, godless, out to destroy our faith and create anarchy and sin everywhere! Even when I understood that nothing was further from the truth, those false teachings still hit home.

But make no doubt about it: Religion has a strong hold on people, and it's hard to let go. Even after "coming out" here on this site, I still sometimes wonder, "What if I'm wrong?"

After decades of churchgoing, it's like unfriending your first friend on Facebook. They've been around this long, why detach? But it's more fear, I realize. I kept hanging on - using Pascal's wager, the social benefits of church as a rationale - not because I loved God, but because I was afraid of the consequences.

It's a weird feeling, breaking away. But it's a good feeling. I want to read more and bolster any arguments to counter those small peaks of doubt. Every new argument makes it so much clearer, and my Sunday School teachers seem that much farther away.

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Comment by Steph S. on August 13, 2011 at 1:15pm
Welcome to the Nexus K Avony.  Hope that you enjoy the site.  We can help you strengthen your Atheism.  There is much information and social networking on this site to help you in your journey.
Comment by John B Hodges on August 12, 2011 at 6:40am
Welcome. There is lots of material, on this site and others. Lots of people and organizations to connect with if you want them. You are not alone.

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