Confession of a Erotic Fiction Addict

Ok, so i love to read! Not just love to, but need to, have to, must READ. I like to read things that expanded my mind like Science, History, Philosophy, and other books that make me a smarter person and a better human in general. And don't think for a second that i don't read shit loads of Sci-Fi, Horror and Suspense,...lots of fiction. I live to read.

About 7 years ago i read The story of O ( and it blew my mind. I was so interested in this topic that i went on a binge of all and any erotica i could find. I read Anne Rice(she writes some pretty awesome vampires though), Marques de Sade and loads of others that wrote about love, domination, submission, pain, pleasure and lust. I think at first i only had a morbid curiosity about these topics...i wanted to gorge myself on the stories that made my heart quicken (i would add "make me blush", but Im not sure if my skin tone permits as much) and my mind race. If you are not an avid reader...which most people are not...then this might sound super lame...but think on this...its like porn...that i can look at anywhere i please..without anyone knowing the thoughts and images going through my head. I equate my fascination it to that of a porn addict.

Constant Mental Masturbation via my Optical Nerves.

Well as the years have gone by, my wonder-lust has become kinda crazy. I actually get anxious when i am at the last chapter of one of my erotica/romance books. I get worried that i will have to go one night without some 'mental' stimulation. I buy two or three books at a time and read them all within a couple of weeks. It seems the more i read, the more i want... and of course the more i buy! I even search for short stories on the net ( to get me through my work day. It used to be that reading was all it took to get me off ( you guys can take that as literal or figurative *winks*). A couple of chapters and i was good to go. Now i catch myself yearning for something off the pages...something real. Its no longer enough to read the stories...i now want to be IN the stories. I wont go into details...want to keep this PG-13.

But i can say that this erotica crap has totally rotted my brain and i catch myself searching for that which is only fiction. There is no 'Nordic Viking' coming to whisk me away and ravish my body! Or some 'Dark, Dominating Overlord' coming to take me away in chains and make me his love slave (*sighs*). And unless they make a Fully Automated Dominate love doll (with accessories) kinda S.O.L.! And believe me i have searched. (warning: telling anyone new that you are into unsavory acts of copulation can only lead to weird looks or offers you dont want...i promise!)

I dont' really know why i decided to share this with you guys and gals, guess i am making a public service announcement against the instant addictiveness of hardcore romance and erotica...JUST SAY NO!

Thanks for blog...gonna go buy some e-books now...all the thrill, half the price.

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Comment by Jaime Paredes Muñoz on September 2, 2009 at 12:17pm
I mostly like to read economics,chess books or books of Bill Gates, or related to Bill Gates.I was in Seattle in 1974 and 1975 ,and when I was the president of the Seattle Chess Club,Bill Gates was trying to become World Chess Champion,he could not, because he bought in Two Way Sreet,Redmond ,the land for Microsoft, and he was too busy all the time.He came to Peru in 2008.Your friend from Peru,Jaime Paredes
Comment by Jennifer E. on July 13, 2009 at 12:36am
Brandy - I've been a fan of literotica for years! I'd much rather read erotic fiction than watch porn. So much more for the imagination!
Comment by Gecko, of Richie! on June 17, 2009 at 10:10pm
P.S. If it turns you on it's not an "unsavory act of copulation". As long as it's consenting adults.
Comment by Gecko, of Richie! on June 17, 2009 at 10:09pm
Brandy my dear, you need to look up and find certain clubs in the Houston area. I wish I had more info for you, but what you long for is there, in safe, and sane environments. Being you are a beautiful female, these avenues are often free for you. You would be amazed at just how in control you would be in these circles. Seek and you will find. If this was ten years ago "sigh".........take your time, be careful, and good luck.
Comment by Steve Anthony on June 17, 2009 at 9:50pm
The only problem I have is that there is never enough time in a day to do all the reading you would like to do. :) but in regards to the rest of your writing......theres no shame in taking an interest in a subject like do it and no one seems to care much about it. Hopefully co-workers are not on this site. Well on second thought being from San Antone myself you probably dont see too many atheist around so you probably dont have co-workers on here anyway. :) be safe.........
Comment by Orson_Zedd on June 5, 2009 at 9:29pm
haha, well, the thing about perversion is, to some extent, I think we all are. It's just a matter of how well we hide it. At the base of our nature is a desire to reproduce, and it's damn near impossible to remove. At the very least, you can pile crap up around it to hide it away. And you know how two things that are too close to one another can start smelling or tasting like the other? I wonder if that's where fetishes come from?

Er, sorry, my brain went crazy.
Comment by Scream on May 20, 2009 at 9:49am
(warning: telling anyone new that you are into unsavory acts of copulation can only lead to weird looks or offers you dont want...i promise!)

How true!!! LMAO



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