Dear Atheism,

Why am I so joyfully obsessed with you? Why do I consider the highlights of my day to be when I check my Facebook (FB) notifications? Why do I write a letter to you as if you were a being with which to
communicate? Is it because I need something
to replace my Christian God? How can someone be so happy that something doesn’t

I have an atheist friend who does not care much about you. You are not a topic of much interest to him. He knows you are his but he is not obsessed with you. How can he get on with his life without making you the
centerpiece of his life? I suspect that
atheists like this who were raised by atheist parents have no need to spend
much thought on you because they are not bound to Christianity by pangs of fear
and guilt.

For me, though, you have replaced Christianity, which was my life’s purpose at one time. Maybe I am replacing one life’s purpose with another. Before, I was on a mission to convert everyone I knew to Christianity.
Now I feel like I am on mission to convert everyone to atheism. But, alas, I
realize that is impossible and would be futile because Christians block out
rationality when it comes to religion whereas you embrace it.

I think it is because I am still in the grip of Christianity even though I thought I divorced Christianity 35 years ago. Christianity is like an ex who is stalking me. I can’t get rid of her fully, even after 35

I speculate that I am so passionately in love with you now because I need to fight hard to escape my Christian past. I need to put some emotion into it to free myself. It is like I am trying to escape the earth’s
(Christianity’s) gravitational pull and I need a rocket fuel (emotion) burst to
get out of this orbit in which I find myself.

Sometimes, I still find myself wondering if I am wrong. Perhaps I will be spending a trillion + years in Hell. Then, I just remind myself how ridiculous it would be for there to be a god who would set me up for
failure like this. He gave me a good brain. He made the universe appear to be a
result of the interaction of many forces of nature. Then he would sentence me
to a trillion years in Hell for using the brain he gave me. Then I go to
Facebook and check for Notifications and interesting posts about you and I feel
better. It is like therapy from my Christianity neurosis.

I suspect there are many more people on FB who are like me in this way. I have a conjecture that my friends who are posting on FB daily are also in therapy, trying to evade their ex’s, trying to break away from
their orbit. Atheist-raised atheists just realize you are their parent and they
grow up and live normal lives. They do not need FB. They are secure in their
lack of belief. Is my conjecture about Atheism true? Will I ever be free like
my atheists with atheist parents?



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Comment by Rudy Ruddell on May 16, 2010 at 10:34pm
Gerald, thanks for the encouragement for writing my book some day.
Comment by Rudy Ruddell on May 16, 2010 at 10:31pm
Secular Sue, I agree with you. Your list infuriates me. I am looking for a way to help lead someone from the Lord. I think it is possible as long as you are not condescending and insulting.
Comment by Secular Sue on May 16, 2010 at 1:44am
>Why not just let people go ahead and live their lives without imposing your ideas on them?"
Why not let them terrorize little children with threats of hell and Satan and demons? Why not just let the children of religious people suffer and die when their parents deny them medical care? Why not just let the believers take away a woman's reproductive rights? Why not let them decide who can marry? When to pray? Why not let them turn our democracy into a theocracy? Why not let them have their little Armegeddon?
Are you serious?
I'm not out there in anyone's face, denying them their rights. I don't go knocking on doors, imposing my ideas on christians. I might, if I were braver. For now, I try to express my thoughts in appropriate venues, in ways appropriate to the situation.
On an atheist forum, I figure I can be a little snarky about it.
Comment by Gerald Scott on May 15, 2010 at 9:47pm
As an atheist father, I never discussed religion with my children. I felt, if they want to learn religion, then read a book or go to church. I don't know if they did either. I had no idea what religious people had to endure to become an atheist until I came to this site. There is more drama, history, comedy and tragedy in your post than I could find in any book at Borders. Thanks for the insight.
Comment by Secular Sue on May 15, 2010 at 3:50am
"Now I feel like I am on mission to convert everyone to atheism."
I know what you mean. I wonder why I'm so obsessed with not believing. I want to help others see the folly of it all! If I were a christian, I'd say this is my calling; God wants me to spread the word that he was just kidding. We've been punked and it's time to get over it.
Comment by Rudy Ruddell on May 15, 2010 at 12:52am
I want to write an atheist book. Recently I found out I might be unemployed for the summer and I found myself telling myself, “God must have set things up so I can write my book.” I
may have these viral episodes the rest of my life.



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