so my drinking issue it was gotten out of hand i gor drunk and fell off the wagon hiring every bump and stone on the road that the wagon was on. i have a hangover that feels like electrical pulses are being fired off every five seconds. but this is the point in where you find a "higher" power right? god is to life me up and give me salvation no i do not have that luxury. this is simply me giving in to predisposition a self disruptive vice. but a lesson was learned that i can not play around with this beast anymore that i do need to place my happy self into rehab and attend secular sobriety meetings. in my town there are just AA meetings that are laced with religious undertones. so i have to go to the city and attend them. what a shame that AA is so prevalent and secular sobriety is not. a church is on every corner a free thinker is in there house typing away to outer like minds.so it is time to take this seriously time to rebuild my self and go forward. sobriety with out a higher power is real and it is possible.