What the hell, I have nothing better to do today than speak my mind a bit. I really haven't written anything at all anywhere in a very long time. So here goes...
The biggest problem with humans is that they're so godlessdamned chicken shit. I mean really. When human kind learned to think the first thing he did was recognize danger and he ran like hell. And people are still running. And hiding. It drives me nuts. This is the real reason I just quit and don't really give two shits for the human race anymore. I'm sick of cowards.
Bravado and bullshit have replaced true courage in this world; especially in this country. John Wayne sure is dead. Men are pussies and women are pissed. The generations coming up have zero roll models to guide them. It's very, very sad, and I just don't want to watch the weenie-ification of America.
OK, so my words open up a huge can of worms that could take a day or two of writing to unravel but I said all that to say this: people are too damned scared to face up to the realities right in front of their face. I'm talking to myself, now. Religious belief gripped me so hard that I clung to myths for far, far too long. The thought of a godless universe scared the shit out of me. It was one of the very few things I've ever been afraid of. (OK, I am claustrophobic but that's a whole other subject.) My fellow religious people used to piss me off because even though they claimed to have all these strong beliefs they would not get off their ass and stick their neck out for them. I did. And man did I get my head whacked over and over. Nobody likes a fanatic, right? And nobody likes to see someone else with more courage than they have.
The time came, though. The day arrived when I had to look back at my life, my beliefs, etc., and admit it had all been crap. Just bullshit. I saw how I'd learned the art of rationalization extremely well. And to think I'd always been one to say I believed in one thing: truth. Well, shit, when I actually looked Truth in the face my gut exploded. I had an epiphany: "holy shit, there really isn't any god!" And fear gripped me like never before. But I faced that motherfucker and shoved right through it. And here I am.
Most people never, ever have the guts to look into the face of Truth, much less admit it is what it is. And that's why religion works so well. Sheeple have chicken hearts.
Of course the results is that they become bullies. Bullies are cowards with big fists. And bullies must have victims. And what better victims than those evil atheists? So we live out in the hinterland, often alone and isolated. But this is where I piss off more people today. Way too damn many people who have become comfortable with being atheists in a world of theist nutcases choose to keep their mouth shut rather than face the ridicule that comes with being honest.
When I was an xtian, there was a story passed around about a guy who "got saved." He was all full of joy and happiness and all that bullshit. But then he had a problem. Every year he and his wild buddies would go on a hedonistic weekend. And that trip was coming up. The guy was married, of course. She was an xtian convert too. So she asked him what he would do about that weekend. He said he did not know, he'd figure it out. Well, the trip came, he went, and came back all sunburned and happy. His wife was puzzled, thinking he'd be picked on and heckled by his wild friends for becoming religious. She asked what happened when they found out he was now an xtian. He said, "they never knew." Coward. The flip side of this story is where atheists do the same thing when among xtians, or religious people of any stripe. It's just too fucking easy, and so much safer, to go on along to get on along. Coward.
OK, so I'm not saying it would be advisable to get up in friends/workers faces and say, "Hey, I'm an atheist now so fuck you and your god!" That's just being a jackass. But we have the right NOT to believe bullshit. And we have a right to be accepted no matter what. If closet atheists would simply and sometimes subtly stand up for their rights and admit who they are the cause would go so much further.
So yeah, I can talk, I don't have any friends at all (discounting Facebook 'friends' of course. ugh.) No, no friends at all. And my family has already written me off. But the thing is, one of the reasons I AM so isolated is because too many atheists are cowards. Atheists are like Wack-a-mole pins. We pop up singly here and there so it's easy to knock us down. If a fraction of those who "just don't believe anymore" would face their fear and just admit it to themselves and others the stigma would start to go away and more people would give religion up. They would because not only are they cowards but they are sheep, as I said. Give them a little herd to bunch up with and they'll start gathering around.
Damn, look what I wrote. Amazing. ...so, anyway, hell... I hate being so isolated and alone. I hate knowing that the minute I am me and admit I'm an atheist, or even a "non-religious person" or whatever, I cut the chords. I get really fucking lonely sometimes. But when I search online for friends the one wall that separates me from almost everyone else is religion. That's a damn shame. And it's why I so much want to see people who really don't believe start admitting it and checking "non-religious" rather than automatically clicking "christian" just for convenience. And it's why I want to see people who know they're atheists fucking admit it, check "atheist" instead of "non-religious." Then I won't be a Wack-a-mole anymore. Besides, I have enough damn headaches as it is.