Don't expect me to believe you don't believe in God like the rest of us. You just have some need to be different.
I've known you all your life. You were never as athletic or as smart or as popular as the other kids, so instead of finding something to do where you'd be as good as them, you had to go looking for some way to be better than them, something that they never heard of and didn't care about. This "atheism" thing is just your way of resolving your inferiority complex.
Maybe you've got mild autism, or aspergers syndrome. You just can't feel like you fit in because of your brain chemistry. But God's love is here for everyone. He hasn't turned his back on you, you've turned yours on him by turning it on us. You see, God lives in everyone's hearts, and by denying Him, you're denying yourself of our hearts (even though you were never as athletic or as smart or as popular as the rest of us).
Now stop being so self-absorbed, and believe the same things as the rest of us, and dress and behave like the rest of us. Then you might have a chance to be a little bit more happy, despite your brain chemistry.