So, as some of you know, I should be starting dental school next year, and in the mean time I'm taking some extra courses at my local city college to keep my study habits up in the interim.

Yesterday there was a shooting at my school. No one died, but one person was hospitalized. Apparently it was some argument over a parking spot. Yesterday I was planning to go down during my lunch break to do some lab work but decided to go book shopping instead. During that time, the shooting happened.

Today, I got my hair cut.

A few years ago I would have gone immediately to church and prayed all day, thanking God for having let someone else get shot instead of me. But not now, now I go about my life. Now I wonder if I'll have time to go out there tomorrow and do my lab work then. Maybe tonight I'll have a beer.

It's odd, it's very odd. I could have been shot yesterday, had I not had a small level of greed in me I very well could have been.

Am I shaken? Yes, somewhat.

Am I on my knees groveling to a God who simultaneously allowed a tragedy to happen but spared me from it? No. That would be slavish.

Today I have the day off. I may go read the book I bought when someone else was getting shot.

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Comment by Jo Jerome on September 21, 2009 at 9:28pm
"I've never had to cope with something like this without God before -- it's just weird."

I kinda know what you mean. I've had several deaths in the family since losing my religion. Once upon a time, there was a particular process one goes through. A place to go, a prayer to recite, particular motions to go through. It's not so much a feeling of loss of that process, but a weird feeling of "Wow, it really is up to me how to deal with this in my own unique way."

Another way that I think Atheism makes for a more responsible, conscious, self-aware human being. While you may benefit from advice of others or get inspired by a story, a song, a poem, ultimately there is no one to direct you how to deal with tragedy. You figure it out for yourself, which is generally the better way to learn.

If that makes any sense. ;-)
Comment by Not important on September 4, 2009 at 2:29pm
"I've never had to cope with something like this without God before -- it's just weird."

I'm not sure how going to church makes one feel better after a tragedy. Is it the connection to other people? Is it the state of mind you succumb to due to the atmosphere?

My best friends brother and sister died in an auto accident on their way to school last year. I think of them daily. The worst thing I can think of is that no one will ever think of me when I'm gone. Maybe you should reach out to friends and family for "the human connection" and create a feeling of value in your life. That real flesh and blood PEOPLE love you. You don't have to pretend you feel love from a a God. Because you don't really.
Comment by Not important on September 4, 2009 at 2:22pm
Yesterday I read that a 9yr old boy was struck by a vehicle and died on site...his mother had pulled the car over and he helped a duck across the road. The first thing I thought of was all the times I've moved a turtle. I felt bad that he died doing a good deed, but if there was a god and he pre-determined to have this boy die saving a ducks life...I don't want to worship a being like that.
I still plan to help turtles, but being about 3 times this boys age, I feel confident I won't be struck.
Comment by OutlawGirl on September 3, 2009 at 7:41pm
I've had a few close calls myself, most of them while driving on the freeway - no surprise. Shit happens. I think it's healither to move on with your life.

Is the person who was shot doing alright? Personally I'd feel compelled to send him flowers or something, just knowing that we went to the same school, but that's just me. I'm a great big sap.
Comment by Louis on September 3, 2009 at 3:46pm
I don't really care about the good or bad in this. It happened, it happened well beyond my control, there's nothing I could have done to stop it, there's nothing I can do now to undo it.

It's just weird for me to not be in church after something like this. This is the first tragedy kind of thing that has happened to me since I became an atheist, I've never had to cope with something like this without God before -- it's just weird.

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