In a couple of days my family is going on a vacation without me. I'm stuck here at home going to classes and such.
Lately, I've been having a really bad feeling about their trip. I keep getting this feeling that something bad is going to happen to them while they're away. I don't know why I feel like this, but I do. And it's not going away.
I'm not so much worried with the flight itself, flying is still the safest way to travel, they're flying on the new Airbuses and not the decrepit Boeings that need to scrapped.
On the first leg of their trip, one of the orders of business for them is to settle a severe intrafamily dispute, that already has me worried. One party really is on the brink, totally broke and stealing the inheritance from the others. I'm worried that they'll do something to hurt my family. My mother thinks I'm being paranoid, my father and siblings on the other hand are also worried about a possible confrontation.
I don't think I'm being totally unreasonable, I don't believe my fear is unjustified, but that doesn't help to soothe my mind. Things like this were much easier to deal with when I could just ask god to take care of it, but now I'm at a loss. I can't put it aside, it's at the forefront of my mind almost all the time. I try not to think about it but I won't be able to relax until they're all out of that first stop and away from all the madness.
I hate this feeling and I wish I could make it go away. I just want to stop feeling like this.