Everywhere I go - everywhere - I am surrounded by the din of "g0d, g0d, g0d" at every turn. I can't not hear it, I can't turn it off. It drives me crazy. Even just now in the commons I hear a conversation going on a few seats over about how we need a savior, about how gawd will help you, about how you need christ and blah, blah, blah... It's a private conversation, nothing harmful but... I wish I could go for one whole day without hearing or reading about g0d. That is the root of my obsession.

"If you see someone who's lying, stealing and hurting people - they're of the devil."

What is wrong with, "they are a bad person"?????

Which gets me to the root of what I wanted to talk about today and that's promoting atheism. The way I see it religion will never be abolished by force or deconversion. In order for theism to be abolished I think we need to get rid of the need for religion:

1) Help people feel safe and in control.

People tend to turn to religion in times of trouble. People cling to faith when they feel they are not safe, they cling to faith when they're having problems in their personal lives. The best way we can help alleviate this need for religion is by bettering our world and helping people in our own lives.

2) Social change.

In my humble opinion we need to let reason and rationality seep deep into our culture. Make it socially laughable to hold unprovable beliefs. Nowadays it is socially unacceptable to be an atheist (I found that out again today but more on that later) and thus many of us tend to keep quiet about our nonfaith but imagine if the tables were turned. Could religion survive if most people remained at the default position of "I'll believe it when there's some proof"? I doubt it.

So there you have it, those are my two main points right there. Help people and laugh at those who would assert something as absolute truth without a shred of credible evidence.

I found out a little more about being an atheist in a christian society today that left me a little unsettled.

The IT guy in the computer lab brought up the stupid Ms. USA pageant and what ms. california said about gay rights (as far as I'm concerned gay marriage is a rights issue) and how a christian was being persecuted for her beliefs on national TV. Another dude in the room wearing flannel and a trucker hat was like, "totally. One man, one woman just like GOD says"


Now, I have to admit I did not bring up atheism at the time but by politely disagreeing with them I got to see how "christians" treat those who don't follow their party line. Long story short, I wound up getting flipped off and told to shut up by flannel guy. IT guy just sort of turned a blind eye.

Yeah. Needless to say I didn't bring up the whole g0d not existing thing.

So I'm more interested than ever in getting with a group of atheists in my area. My roommates are good for conversation but I would like to meet other people in my area. Most of my friends are some brand of christian and I'm kind of tired of not being able to just come right out and say, "you're wrong".


I'm just frustrated. I want to debate with someone but I am not really that good at the whole "does god exist" debate because I'm not as thoroughly armed as some of my fellow atheists. After reading the bible through twice and looking at apologists and atheists writings I feel I've put in my research.

It brings to mind one of my experiences with a Jehovah's Witness (a lady at my work is a JW and her friends are always trying to convert the staff) when I finally told him after nicely declining his invitations several times and he kept pressing that I am an atheist. He wanted to argue with me, debate the theory of evolution because according to him the earth was perfectly made for life and I could only tell him:

"Look, I am not an evolutionary biologist okay? I've put in my research and looked at the evidence on both sides and I just don't believe it (christianity). The best thing I can tell you is that life came about in spite of the conditions of earth, not because of them. The earth seems designed for life because life had to adapt to the environment."

He thought that was very funny and asked for my proof. I shook my head and stifled a snide remark about taking 8th grade biology.

I'm frustrated and lonely and Scott (my bf) is a shithead and I don't want to go home. Our computer troubles made me go on a long drive to drop off some disks and he refused to come with me. WTF? He uses the damn thing more than I do and I feel so alone.

He's the type of atheist to whom religion just never stuck. I really envy him. It used to scare the shit out of me.

Grrr... I'm just feeling my scars today and getting all bitter about it. I don't heal pretty either - I tend to get kleoids wherever there is a deep tissue injury and I've got the raised bumps to prove it. That goes for both physical and psychological traumas. I don't just heal over, it leaves a mark that is permanently disfiguring.


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Comment by Jill Alexia on April 27, 2009 at 5:48am
If this is happening at work there are laws that prevent people from pushing religion in the work place. Have you talked to HR?

I've learned that all the religious can do is laugh. It's usually what I get from them as well. In all fairness, it's also what I do to them.

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling lonely. I do sometimes, too. We all do. I'm betting it'll pass. If not, talk to someone. It *totally* sucks to feel lonely, and it's also totally normal. Take care darlin', and do your best to focus on you and just you, rather than others (i.e. crackpots! lol!). :-)
Comment by Clarence Dember on April 22, 2009 at 8:02am
Part of what your experiencing is a lingering belief that given the choice, people will choose to be rational about their options. It ain't so. It's not that they were born without that capacity; they have really deep conditioning which they likely resent. You come along, and volunteer to be the target for their mis-shapen angst from invalid conditioning they got before the age of reason (most likely in the family of origin) and they give it to you right between the eyes. Don't allow your environment to place you in the stressed out mode. Manage it proactively.
Imagine if you were the only person who knew how to use a knife and fork in your neighborhood. Are you going to resort to eating with your fingers because all of the other savages think it's the way to go? Don't let them destroy your serenity or your call to excellence.



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