Ok, im an atheist, i'll admit it here, and around my mom and dad all the time...especially my dad, just to make him mad because hes a christian and likes to try and force me to believe and crap. He believes that no different race hould be together and that gays should all drop dead or whatever. So, the more i piss him off the better. Im not saying im an atheist because of that though, im an atheist because i just don't see proof of a man upstairs saying hey, do this or do that, plus we are told as little kids and stuff when we say something like "Michael broke the mirror, not me" "Wheres the proof honey?". I might pull a George Carlin and be a sun believer, its there, i know what it does for me and i can always count on it to shine bright on me everyday. Though there is one group of people i still haven't gotten the courage to say "Hey, i don't believe in this god of yours, im an atheist and proud of it" and that is my grandmas side of the family. We have a family get together (they call it a renuion, but if its every year, there is no time to miss each other), and they like to pray, sing, and talk about how god has saved them and gotten them here safely, i just want to yell out "God didn't do that, you did! You drove the car with your own body, gas, brake and got yourself here without anyones help, so stop saying that!" but i lack the courage to admit to them that i don't believe in their god.
I know its not right to just let them think im a christian like them still and im happy with it, because im not. But, I can't break it to them, they are always their for me and they are proud of me for what i accomplish, even if its a small thing. What if i tell them, they decided to just say whatever to me and not care anymore? I don't know, this might be the year i try to say, "Hey, im an atheist! I have my reasons, so don't try to convert me back." But, we will see if that is possible for me to do this year...