I come from a Christian family. My mom is very... very religious. She cried her eyes out when I said that I didn't want to get baptized. My father, I love him. He's very understanding and open-minded about my lack of belief and has been a huge help when it comes to dealing with my mother.
But my grandparents on the other hand, they are very much a picture perfect view of christian country folk. I am made to dress up in ridiculous clothing every Sunday because we are going to 'The Lord's house and home.'. The pastor there is quite nice outside of church, but inside, it's all GOD IS YOUR GOD AND YOU WILL BELIEVE!
The people at church are... alright, but whenever I mention a word about any possibilities other than what is said in the bible, I get nasty looks and glares. Once I mentioned that abortion, in my opinion, was not murder, the shocked look on the people's faces was enough to make me want to cry.
I've never truly believed in God and Jesus, ever. The stories I was told before bed always seemed exactly that: stories. They always seemed too far fetched for me to believe. If God rose the flood waters to 20 feet above the mountains, the animals would run out of oxygen, they would attack each other, they would run out of food within a couple days. And once the waters receded, all vegetation would be gone. So there goes the herbivores, and every time a carnivore got hungry, they would wipe out an entire species.
I'm sorry, I'm just... I can't get out of going to church without having a huge fight with my grandmother. And I hate fighting with her. I HATE IT. She's such a sweet old woman. Plus... she makes my food...
Church just seems like a waste of time to me. I could be doing bigger and better things than sitting around a tiny, white building listening to a preacher for 3 hours. My two close friends understand my dilemma. One is an atheist as well and the other one believes in the Norse gods. I just wish my whole family could... Any help?