Feeling bummed and needing to vent.
I usually ignore the 'war on christmas' as an extremely closeted atheist. Surely, this isn't the first time I've had it shoved in my face so blatantly. Maybe I'm just more aware, or just tired of it.
I was at school working on a christmas door decoration contest. I have no problem calling this time of year christmas. I don't really care if someone says 'merry christmas' instead of 'happy holidays' if their intentions are to communicate a friendly greeting. However, one of my team members said, in a very confrontational way, that we would be putting the phrase merry christmas at the top of our poster and not happy holidays. Anyone that doesn't believe in christ shouldn't even celebrate christmas and the other team members vociferously agreed. Another chimed in that her children bake jesus a birthday cake every Dec. 25.
The anger and indignation just broke my heart. I don't really enjoy the entire spectrum of fall holidays from oct-dec anyway. But I like the pretty lights, and good food, and cheer I see others enjoying. Despite all my family has done to make christmas a really depressing time of family drama, I'm still got a small spark of indoctrinated "Christmas spirit" and this just... it felt like kicking a puppy. I don't feel that I have the right to defend my beliefs and not lose my place in this program. I worked really hard to get one of the 50 slots they allow every year, and I can't jeopardize it. I was only brave enough to comment that winter holidays were celebrated long before the birth of christ and they all just said they didn't want to get into that argument. I let it go.
Anyway, I just really wanted to cry. It's finals this week and I'm stressed, and sick, and sleep deprived and needed to rant. Fuck religion, and fuck their privilege.