I origanally posted this in the group polyamory but i havent got any replys so i'll try here.
ok, so i am bisexual and ive been in a monogamous relationship for about 2 years now. only because my boyfriend doesnt agree with open love. but its really starting to affect me. see there is a girl i met when i lived in georgia when i was 17. we really had a thing for each other and it was really strong but one day i had to move to texas unexpectedly never getting to say goodbye. well we still have very strong feelings for each other. so now im in this relationship with this guy we have a son who is amazing and i do love him but he doesnt give me everything i need he doesnt please me sexually. ive only had one big O with him and now its getting to the point where i dnt care to even try to have sex because i know i'll be disappointed. all i can think about is maybe i should try hooking up with a chic or getting a girlfriend but i dnt want to cheat on my monogamous boyfriend. and i cant talk to him about this stuff so i dont know what to do. i want to explore without breaking up but i dont see how that possible. its like his mind cant be opened. he even tells me that he doesnt fantasize about other women, i thought all people fantasized about other people. i really need help, i just dont know what to do. and sometimes i think that maybe im missing out on something great just by being with one person.