Random message from inappropriately familiar random sort of accidental dispossessed human being with tight grasp of the limitations of existence and pensively resigned acceptance- have been incarcerated for 10 yrs staying at mother's figuring ways to obtain ids and allocate any kind of moneys to begin supporting damn self have been atheist since childhood smewhat precociously disillusioned just stopped in for own personal gratification need to feel reconnected to humanity mine is tenuous many all too human problems like the awkwardness of this......
At 10:25am on September 28, 2008, Kafir Girl said…
Oh, and because I went right into pissy ex-Muslim mode, I forgot to say thank you for reading and thanks so much for the add. There are more of us out there than I realized when I started my little project, and I'm glad that other ex-Muslims are enjoying the blog!
At 10:24am on September 28, 2008, Kafir Girl said…
Chhyeah, the "beauty" of it will turn you, alright. Have your friends actually read this thing??
I've been trying to find the right words to put it in, but I can't seem to figure it out. So... I'll just say that I think I understand how accepting that there is no god (and what that implies) can be a way of coming to terms with life and finding greater happiness.
I echo what others have said about yours being a touching story and I hope it all works out.
I just think it's a gut feeling at some point, or even a revelation if using such a word. That's at least how it felt like, just having the most obvious dimping down on your head. I just wanted to scream "doh!" :)
I used to do like you when I rather tricked myself in god. I questioned my own existence etc. I don't believe in god now either, for me my god is the nature we live in ^^
Good to hear atheism can actually make people feel better too! I believe that the religion you were born in just wasn't for you and you finally found what you were looking for, just like I did about a year ago.
I tried to find what I believed in for a long time since I was 13 or something, ranging from Laveyan Satanism, nihilism, atheism and agnosticism until I realized, hell, I am actually a pagan.
That is a touching story and congratulations on overcoming that phase. I was never very religious, so I can't exactly imagine how you felt. But at least you don't have to be lonely anymore, thanks to this website. I'm up for a chat anytime:)