Ok, thanks. The messaging system on this site had me a little confused.
Montana is highly conservative; very few people I know share my religious or political views. Bozeman is a lot better than a lot of towns in Montana though. Being a college town brings more open minded people to the area, which is nice. I grew up in a tiny town in Montana and almost everyone there supports trump, "traditional marriage" and"putting god back in schools." And don't even talk about regulating their guns... I feel I have to censor a lot of what I say or people scream libtard.
And to be honest there's quite a bit of racism towards the Native Americans. I've heard more than a few people say, "I'm not a racist, but I hate Indians," if that makes any sense... makes me sad
So yeah, being an atheist in Montana can be pretty lonely
Well under Yugoslavia atheism was quite dominant (socialism etc), then christianity took control. Now with the immigration there is a massive almost forced conversion to islam being attempted it seems...
Hey there. It's not much different here now in "the bible belt" I'm a gay female and it hard as hell to be here. I've been here 3.5 yes now and have No friends. They do not care for my life style, they hate my music. I'm a metal head from way back. I'm sure you can imagine how I'm treated.
Thank you for your response. I really appreciate it and it makes me feel human. Here..
I'm a terrible person and I'm told constantly I'm going to hell and other such nonsense.
You got cut off on your last/second message. I assume you fell asleep? Or maybe just didn't realize it. And never apologize for rambling. I am a ramble monster myself and and I always appreciate when people can ramble back at me. Heh.
As far as having a mental illness because of indoctrination, I didn't escape that either. Although, I don't know if MY mental illness is because of being indoctrinated, but I do have a mental illness. And i was diagnosed in my early twenties, around the same time I was questioning a lot of things and such.
Hmmm, what else? Oh, magic shows and mythology. Growing up, my parents namely my dad's idea of bed time stories were of course bible stories. i didn't get exposed to greek myth or any other kind of myth until college and during my 'pagan period' as it were. I still enjoy myths, and find them interesting, but they are just as ... outlandish as xtian mythology. My mom is afraid of paranormal things which my dad watched, and I later got into. So that to a point was ... a foot in the door to being exposed to other things?
Also growing up instead of magic shows, I watched those Revival type shows on TBN, with Tim Storey or Benny Hinn. Faith Healers--for some reason as a child it fascinated me that they would 'push people over' (touch their forehead and they faint) and then 'god would heal them' I watched them over and over and over again.. like i did with certain disney movies and sesame street movies. Heh.
After I was diagnosed with my mental illness, my dad tried to take all my paranomral books away so I didn't get confused with the difference between fantasy and reality. I begged him to let me keep them, cause frankly it was the only thing i was reading at the time and the stories kept me sane, gave me something to look forward to every day. I find it odd in a way thinking back, that he didn't try to take the bible away from me too, but to him, I s'pose, that is reality.
And yeah, in regard to hiding/lying about my atheism, I am used to that. I have to lie about the other closets I am in as well, Its like a russian doll type of closet or something. I don't know, hahaha. So my dad can be comfortable in his ignorance, as I still live with him for the moment. I am hoping to move out of the bible belt and up north to either Portland, OR or Boston, MA. Maaybe even Hawaii. We'll see...
No worries, weekends are built for tuning out. heh.
And yeah, my parents are divorced. Have been since I was a baby. My dad's path was definitely louder and what I identified with most when I was among the Theist's ranks.
The experience of coming out of indoctrination is a rocky one. Cause I was deep into the faith game. But what got me out, was ... well, being in college AWAY from my parents, I was free to question things. It lead me down a path of paganism, and then later non-theism. I still respect the Earth and think we should take care of it, so I took that aspect of 'paganism' with me, but none of the gods or goddesses truly felt right.
I still struggle with the more subtle conditioning/programming of being indoctrinated soooo young (my parents are ministers too) like black / white thinking, one true wayism thinking, and such like that.
I'm not really out-out to many people. My mom knows, but I haven't told my dad though I don't go to church any more, so he's probably suspicious and 'praying for me to get right with god' as it were. I told my sisters both of them are hardcore xtians in a nondenominational church. My friends know but that's it.
So suffice to say I have a long way to go as far as 'coming out' but as they say coming out is not a one time deal. You have to do it. over and over for the rest of your life, sometimes. always new people to meet, and situations to either be true to yourself or lie and hide who you are..etc.
You're really lucky to be a 'natural born skeptic' as it were.. I'm a bit late to the party, but it's better than not getting an invite at all, right?
Thank you for the welcome! I am breaking out of .... well ... a sort of Eclectic Judeo-Xtianity? I guess you could call it. My mom is Disciples of Christ, and my Dad .... is Messianic/Pentecostal sorta deal. I'm not sure what you mean by 'experience' could you specify, perhaps?
Hi Joseph. Thanks for the comment. I have always been an atheist. I have been researching life extension this year. The other day I saw some shows (Vlogbrothers and Adam Ruins Death) that said we will probably not extend life and never live forever. I don't want to die and I don't know how to cope with that.
Hey Joseph, thanks for the comment a while ago. To get back to you, no there's not any atheist/agnostic sort of clubs at my high school. I was raised Catholic too, and there are many Catholics in the area, but my generation seems to have a lot more atheists/agnostics (maybe its just because were teenagers) but nevertheless, it is helpful to talk to some of my peers about it.
Hey joseph, thank u for the welcome :) i hope we can share a lot of thoughts about atheist in the future. Yes u r right, Indonesia is known as religion country and i can say it's illegal to be an atheist. It's a must to put your religion in your ID card, and whenever you know new people, being friends, they'll ask u about your religion, most of them is not open minded when i told them i'm an atheist, so sometimes i dont bother tell them, i tell them i am a christian.
I haven't met any atheist in my country but i believe there's plenty here. :)
Hello Joseph and thank you for the welcome. You're right about Greenville,Sc not being a great place for atheist support. I actually graduated from a christian university here, North Greenville University, which is where I lost my faith halfway through being there. I still have a few friends from there but most of them are still Christian. It's hard to really open up when you're surrounded by them but I managed to tell a friend that I didn't believe any of it anymore, to which she replied, I'll pray for you. haha...I said you can do what you want. Prayer won't affect me.
So, a bit about me, I grew up in a christian home. My dad was the pastor of a Baptist church. So I was brainwashed from birth to believe in the nonsense and not question anything. It wasn't until university that I began to think for myself and realise it is INDEED all nonsense, and started to look for things that did make sense in reality. I went through a depressed period and I still have bouts of depression, but I had a new peace of mind when I started to think for myself.
Now my parents are missionaries in Vietnam, so they're far away and don't bother me, but my dad kind of knows now that--well to him I'm "rejecting God". but for me, I've given up that crutch.
Thanks for the welcome. I live on my own, so no worries about that. I just don't know how my mom would take it. She's an every Sunday Christian (southern baptist). I just don't know any other atheists in Nashville & just want to find ppl to talk to about my non-belief.
TEE-HEE! 'Obnoxiously inquisitive'. That's great! I'm obnoxiously honest and also very curious. One of these days maybe we can find something we vehemently disagree on. I think it could be a terrific bit of fun!!