I feel as though I became more self aware around three months ago, I began to notice the science in everything and started to question things that I had been told. From an early age, around six or seven I started questioning theism. I made the choice to have myself removed from scripture, presenting to my Father exactly why I didn't believe in different aspects of the Bible, and that I recognized the scare tactics they used on children, I was a very forward thinker and always appreciated honesty, I saw no honesty in their teachings. From then on I always believed in something, what would change but it's as though my brain held onto that little bit of faith to make things easier. Ghosts, souls, angels and an after life. Were all things I grew up knowing** were real. They were constantly talked about by Celtic Father, his Wiccan friends, my Mother was/is a very confused Catholic, mixing aspects of Paganism into her beliefs.
So, I understood there was definitely an afterlife, even though I didn't resonate with any religions and was a constant skeptic, I still for some reason never occurred to me to really question it.
It just hit me one day, I woke up and I knew there was nothing after I die. It's hard to explain, but I just unraveled everything I'd been told and realized it was completely ridiculous and I was amazed at out wonderful brains are for creating something so elaborate, and making us believe so firmly in something that quite frankly, is absurd, all to use as a coping mechanism as we crave the need for meaning and purpose. I'm fascinated by that.
Nothing else has changed. I've always believed in the power of human kindness and this has encouraged me even more to strive to be someone who makes others feel warm. Because we get one life, why waste it drowning in negativity? That's what truly scares me. Dying without making a positive impact on the lives of people who surround me. To die with regrets of a life lived slaving away for the man, working 9 to 5, five days out of the seven I get a week? and for what? To buy stuff? No. That doesnt work for me. I want to see the world, love with all of my heart, sing, dance and be my best self.
Hey Joseph. I was non denominational. I'm very happy to be free these days. Its been about 2 and a half years since I left the faith. This place looks interesting. Think I'll explore a bit now that I'm here.
Yeah, I grew up Catholic, but have just begun to realize the finer points of my actual fundamental beliefs, mainly which don't lay any faith upon God or have any specific association with the Divine. I'm still trying to sort through some things (I.e. My decision to still capitalize out of respect),which is part of the reason I've decided to join this community. The area where I live is also, well, a little more developed, wealthier etc. so because of that it's more tolerant and not quite as dangerous to admit to having different opinions on controversial topics.
That being said though, it's still a very southern, Christian-dominated town (and although there is some diversity, most of the people I know practice some form of theism.) So, I'm in a safe environment (thankfully!) but not a very supportive one either:( I'm fresh out of high school and have quite a lot to experience ahead of me but I'm exited. looking forward to discussing my new found beliefs with resources I've never had:)
Sorry for sounding cliche, you can obviously tell I'm new, but thanks for commenting!
What I found out was that the stories of the 12 disciples, the 3 kings, the son of god, the crucifixion, the 3 days in the grave and the resurrection were stories that were told to explain the movement, progression and alignment of the stars. The Son of god was the Sun of god. Most of the stories in the bible were myths that were personified and took on a reality. The bible is a book of myths, parables and allegories. I had studied many religions and read many books looking for understanding about religion, but when I came across the astronomical explanations which I call astrotheology is when I realized that all religions are a sham. The Jews and the Muslims are the moon-god worshipers and the Christians are the sun worshipers. At any rate, I am finished with religion.
Thank you! Actually, I'm new in Vladivostok and I came here from the epicenter of the war. It's really dangerous there and my parents decided it would be better for me to go away. So, this days I know about the city not much too. Yeah, Russia is a bit crazy, especially concerning religion. Christians here are totally insane, and have a great support from the authority. That's really sad. Hope one day this things will change for better. And how are you? What's on your place?
Thanks. I was raised a wisconson synod lutheran. My that is specific. The doubt was always there and my search was for a spirituality that I couldn't seem to get any closer to. Buddhism became as close as I could find because they do not worship a god. It was reading Harris' The End of Faith that started opening the curtains further. Watching Cosmos really helped as well.
Compared to the Philly area where I was born and raised, the pacnw is much more my style! There are many more "spiritual" people than religious, but still... Luckily I am married to a Catholic who accepts me just the way I am! I raised three kids who are atheists, their choice as I never closed any doors they wanted to look through, so I have my own little world where I am comfortable.
I LOVE to debate, especially with believers- sadly no one wants to be on the opposing side. :(
The whole brainwashing thing floors me. Blind faith in a mean, vindictive, spiteful, omnipotent presence is so mind blowing to me!
haha the dog helps me with the neurotic.I've been having a lot of trouble with anxiety recently so being with my buddy helps. I have a hard time being around people because I just can't relate to like 90% of them.
No, not lovely at all. Some Mormons, some others. It's an organized community stalk. I try to ignore it. But,like me, it just won't go away! Which is what a few very pissy people want. The others just play follow the leader. What better place for that than here?
The part of TN I live in does not atleast. I would love to move to another state somehow, to a more liberal community. That's a world I've never had the privelege to experience. I live in the backwoods with churches around every corner. Now, I'm being kicked out and losing my boyfriend of almost 2 years because I refuse to follow the christian lifestyle that he and his family are deeply involved in. He says the devil has a stronghold on me and its very frustrating. I'm suffocated by this fantasy cult community. And to boot, all of the shelters are faith based and require chapel attendance in return for food and a bed. So, yes you may be able to see why I'm searching for support on the internet lol.
This town is so small and the people are so narrow minded. There's practically a church on every corner and unfortunately, I'm not exaggerating too much, they're everywhere. I also have the added "benefit" of living with hyper religious Mormons who are all too pleased to casually spout their nonsense, but clam right the hell up when I get all secular on their asses.
Its almost next to impossible to even find a university professor outside of more liberal universities or colleges like UP who doesn't frown upon atheism . There's always been a stigma that being godless is equal to being immoral or innately evil. I have to fake faith and its churning my innards every time I have to go to church.
Hi! No, I'm not Latina suprisingly! I used to tutor Spanish-speaking ESL students, and when I'd tell them my name ("Hola, soy Christiana"), they'd nod and smile and look at me as if to say, "Oh, you're a Christian, that's great... but what's your name?" lol. I was named after my British great-grandmother, who we think was named from the book, "Pilgrim's Progress." The main character's name is Christian and his wife is Christiana. :) Nice to meet you!
Thank you for your kind comments. I just don't believe in the supernatural, never did and never will. I am running out of roundups. It goes so easy on my mind that when I die, it is lights out. No afterlife, no pain total non-existence. That is incredibly comforting. It also makes me cherish every moment and live for the minute.
I don't consider six years a short while. I wasted so much time, money, and energy trying to live for an imaginary deity who never existed in the first place, except in my mind. I wasn't raised in a religious household whatsoever. In fact, it was the complete opposite. I was raised in a completely dysfunctional household saturated with abuse and domestic violence. As a child I spent some time in foster homes and a mental hospital before the shit-storm finally calmed down, and I settled down with my dad who was a recovering alcoholic. It was too late by then though. I was a mess and my life became even messier as I became a teenager. My teenager years are nothing but a blur thanks to the abuse of drugs and alcohol. Luckily I graduated HS by the skin of my teeth and managed to escape the hellhole I was living by joining the AF. My troubles and addictions only followed me from there though, and I got very close to getting kicked out of the military. Fortunately they decided to pay for me to attend rehab. During this time I was very unstable psychologically and vulnerable to religious zealots who would want to convert me. And that's exactly what happened. I came across some christians in rehab (and after) who played upon my vulnerability and before you know it I was a baptized, bible thumping, religious crackpot with no idea what I had gotten into. It didn't take long before I was telling everyone I met they were on their way to hell, giving half of my income away, and depriving myself of everything earthly thing I once enjoyed. I became a hardcore street evangelist that carried around obnoxious signs and yelled the "gospel" at everyone that passed by. I spent a ridiculous amount of time praying, reading the bible, and attending bible studies and church. I eventually became one of those people that loved studying theology and church history and found myself adoring people like John Calvin, John Knox, Johnathan Edwards, etc. In other words, I was a "Calvinist." I also eventually finished my enlistment in the AF around this time and decided to move back to NM from Idaho. I wanted to come back here so I could attend school and be closer to family; and so I could witness to them and try to help turn them away from their sins lol. It was hard to leave at first because I had countless christian friends, many of whom were accountability partners with me and knew my deepest and darkest secrets. I still do love a lot of these people like my own siblings but I can’t stand to be around them anymore because they still believe all that bullshit. I forgot to mention this earlier, but my dad also became a hardcore christian after I did and still is to this day. Sometimes I can’t stand being around when he starts trying to preach to me or talk about Christianity. He’s so dogmatic and there is nothing you can say to him that will change his mind. After I moved back down here to NM I didn’t have any christian friends down here whatsoever. To put it simply, I didn’t have anybody down here to encourage me not to question Christianity. Somehow, someway, Sam Harris, Christopher Hitchens, and Matt Dillahunty found their way on to my computer screen, and before you could recite John 3:16 I was a full blown atheist; it literally happened within a few months. Well, that what those six years looked like in a nutshell. There is a lot I left out, but I think you get the gist of it.